Entry ninth of All About U,
I enjoy listening to the beats of ICT - Makavenna as I read.
Z, why do I say it is all about you? Because it is true. The balance of the universe. The Yin and Yan. Good and Evil. Positive and Negative. A whole to be complete. How bold was I to say what I said. You heard, didn’t you?
What does the cover reveal. What does the cover tell?
What does the cover show? We have to remember that this was art from an eighteen year old who was building a career around airbrushing. I was trying to apply different techniques I had learned trying not to go too far in desire to make the art look sharp. I wrote those poems and compiled them into a book that I planned on selling in order to create another stream of income. The artwork was painted on a canvas, and as much of my artwork from my past, I do not know what happened to it. In my house, at my shop, in my warehouse I stored my art in several forms. I ended up losing it all. For another story to be told in the following series G-Rated Stories. This will be the stories soon from the times when I was a child and a teen that created the person who I am with the stories I tell.
I had a thought of what I wanted the cover to look like. In fact, I printed a preliminary cover on the first Airtek Magazine. It shows reference pictures I put together to show the idea that I was going to try to recreate with real sources. This would be a book that would be printed several times. I wanted it to be as original as possible. Remember this was the vision of a teenager.
mfers chase it, they fight, steal, kill for it but they don’t get it - All About U
A teen who was almost killed wrote to himself and others that chasing money or chasing external beings that are out of our control in order to try to control them is a waste of time if inside you are not happy with yourself. If your goal is to be rich and wealthy, it is all possible but will it find you happiness? I’m sure there are many things a person with lots of money can buy to make them happy. But there is such a joy, such a gift to see a grandchild in your arms and watching them grow. There are several examples to the statement, many which lead to unhappiness. I do not know, I am still learning myself as I go.
So what does the cover show?
Three different characters that I played in photos and in real life. Since the song and front cover states this is just a game that we play, I am the player who got a broken heart, the player with the most, and the one with nothing to show that is watching from the sidelines, it seems. They all wore masks because I was trying to make a book that would be looked at not as myself but as anyone with a mask to hide their identity. Everyone at the party wears a mask, puts on a front and plays a persona. It was fun to see the girlfriend at the time that played the girlfriend on the cover. There are pictures of the other female on the cover too. There are photos I found once that were the ones I used as references to make the characters on the cover.
Whenever I played the mime I was usually undercover. Not showing what I really had. Because at this age being an artist with my own business, house, car and properties brought gold diggers to the picture. When I downplayed myself they walked right past me. Could almost be the same ones too. So I played the game. Sometimes I played the fool, sometimes the bad guy. There are different characters I would try. And when I thought I was ready to settle down with the right girl I ended up with a broken heart. Karma, I tell you, she is crazy. So the next relationship involved me acting like I didn’t care. So there I go. In a cycle. Until I learned that what I said was true when I said “what I say is true, it’s about you and only you!” I was being wise to myself, even though I myself did not follow my own advice, ever! So many, so many, so many. Laughing to myself. I enjoyed every one and all the lessons I learned.
Life is still a game for me. But now I include my family. I enjoy life being a single father. I feel it is a blessing to live with her, her boyfriend and father of my grand daughter. Most people do not believe I am old enough to be a grandpa. So I always say hey when you start young and they start young…. I am not going to lie, most people my age have kids between 1 and 15. They are sharing posts on facebook and instagram of their proud moments with their kids and I’m here yelling out “yo! i’m next level bro!” G-Rated.
Funny story, Z, when your grandma saw the book, she immediately did not like it. She knew a margarita when she saw one. And she assumed that the book was written to her. I tried to tell her what I am still repeating to you today. I did not write those poems for her. I wrote those poems before I met her. Destiny can get angry, can’t she? And she would not hear of any poems in jealousy. Not really understanding the true meaning for the poetry and how I was connected to it just like I was with my artwork. They are missions that I have been on since before I met her, your grandma. The book was disgarded somewhere again and brought back up again with Red.
I get it, I put other females on the cover and other females don’t like seeing other females. Well, the cover is done and that is all there is to it. But the poems, I feel help from time to time when I try to say something and fall on deaf ears in moments when someone is angry and does not want to hear voices outside. So I share my book instead. But after Red, I gave up trying to show anyone else that poetry book. But then your mother, Dystany’s Child, my daughter wanted to do music we needed inspiration and help with direction. Neither one of us knew what to write after deciding to do music together. So I go back and find inspiration in that book once again. So it was not meant for my lover, it was meant for my daughter and her daughter, to pass down from generation to generation building generational wealth. I see you dancing and humming to it now when I play it. Thank you Z. I learn from you as much as you learn from me.
Two teach four teach forever more!
I am writing this series with the music “All About U” Inspired Creative Thinkers Playlist all for you Z and your Generation Alpha. This is my entry 009, written on this Friday the 26th of January 2024.
I usually think of myself teaching you all this stuff as soon as you start asking. So I am trying to stay ahead, although there is so much to learn and I am doing my best to keep up with you. Take care and talk soon. Love you Baby Pearl
Index and Outline of chapters to come. Thank you for being a part of a great journey.
It is All About U, Z Entry 009
Entry 10 - What the future holds
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