Bzzzzzz...
"Hey, hey, heyyyyyy.
welcome to a new episode of 'Five for Wise',
This is Ricky Lee, and I am here for your daily five minutes of insight.
Today I'm talking about how I've cultivated new habits & what challenges I've faced.
So, run the intro and just get started."
The intro of Bodhilama's favourite podcast was running.
His rocking chair made some sounds when he moved forth and back.
Today, he's said to himself, he would sit here & do nothing
Just listen & stare at plants.
"Oookay, Queens & Kings, so let's dive right into it.
So, for the past two months, I've been trying to cultivate some new habits.
Never in my Life have I really tried to stick to what I said for so long.
Usually it was on and off that I followed something.
Life got in the way & my focus shifted to something else.
Now, something has shifted in me. And I can just do it.
But How? , you may ask.
Well, that is a good question.
And I couldn't quite figure out the answer to it yet.
But, the following things helped me:
First, I didn't want to do too much at once.
I just cultivated one habit at a time.
When I felt confident & stable with it, I started to cultivate the next one.
Slowly, gently & steadily. And it just happened in a flow.
I did not force myself.
Secondly, I have accountability.
A personal trainer for Yoga.
My Partner for Meditation.
The Public for Writing.
I think there is more and if I find out more,
I will let you know, guys!!!
But let's get what I've learned from sticking to my new habits.
Aaaaaand oooh girl. That's Huuuuuge!!
While doing my practice I learnt about me & my shadows.
Now when I start my practice, those shadows are very present.
It is like they push themselves in the foreground.
When I do Yoga, my lazy voice comes out.
She tells me to not do it.
The flow is so long.
It takes too much time.
There are some Asanas I don't like.
It is exhausting.
I could just lie down in bed.
Sometimes that voice wins. I stay in bed.
I've figured out how I go to sleep is very important.
If I am going to sleep late and maybe watch something till late at night.
Then I sleep badly and wake up with difficulty.
When I meditate, my impatient voice comes out:
She is then very annoying and asks how long we have to sit here?
Says stuff like, 'Come on, just check the clock. I just want to know. Come on! Do it!'
She distracts me with other thoughts because she cannot just be.
Yet, she is actually a loser. I 'm always sitting for the time I say.
I just get very distracted through her and can not focus to go deeper.
Writing is a new habit I try to cultivate.
What I'm seeing is my inner critic coming out:
She whispers very softly in my ear:
You are not good enough.
You are not relevant.
Why are you doing this?
Nobody is interested in your words.
This voice has been getting louder and louder over the last few days.
I have to keep reminding myself what the foal of this work is.
It is not about becoming famous or anything. It is all about the practice.
I just focus on the things that feel good to me.
But the inner critic is loud and robs me of my creativity.
My next habit will focus on a proper night routine.
Reading something, doing something that doesn't involve my phone.
But that is a topic for the next time, because that's it for today.
Ricky Lee is ouuuuut. Feeel ya' next time!
Roger & Out!"
Zzzzzz.
His head fell to the right side while snoring sounds came out of his mouth.
Peacfully,
Bodhialama
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