I have decided to write something and I am not sure what it will be. I will share some of the poetry I wrote last year as well. Writing that poetry was a release. There have been plenty of tears today, but far more memories that have made me smile. One thing I know unequivocally is that Mum would be proud of all of us. My stepdad, my sisters and me.
It's a different format to usual and I think it needed to be. The only thing I want to briefly mention is that I have started to add my previous blogs to Paragraph. You can find my first 3 issues on my profile page. More will be added until I am completely caught up.
Mum passed away on 23rd March 2022 and I wasn't able to be there due to a couple of reasons. I am glad of this, but also wish I was able to support my youngest sister and stepdad in arguably their greatest time of need. One side of this is that I never saw mum looking at her worst, and cancer doesn't have a pretty ending. And I don't feel guilty about not being there at that specific moment, I arrived very late that evening, it's just that I would have liked things to be different.
Somethings we have done, my sister in New Zealand has gained citizenship and changed her job, because it's a lot easier to do that out there once you have citizenship. And she has found a new partner who I am hopefully meeting in June. Another sister has restarted her life following a break up just before mum passed by moving to Northern Ireland and chasing her dreams. She has land for her doggo's out there.
My youngest sister has travelled and had the 21st birthday she told mum she would have, enjoying it on cruise ship. She passed her 2nd year of Uni and is about to complete her final year, all being well. My stepdad has done more than he would have ever thought possible. He has bought a house, passed his motorbike licence (and bought a new Harley), visited Namibia, Florida and went on the afore mentioned cruise.
I have started to adult properly again, it's been some time. I got myself a job (which I enjoy) to protect my savings and because Crypto and NFT's are too exciting to be self employed. And then there is all the web3 stuff. There is a lot. I mention it regularly. I know the things that would make Mum the proudest is that I am not willing to compromise my values of wanting to lift everyone up and the good that I achieve for those around me and myself.
And now to some poetry. I have decided to just share some simple images of the text, with an explanation in the caption. I think that captures the emotion I felt at the time in the best way. For me. And I wrote these for me.
I think the reasons why I wrote the above are clear and don't need any explanation. I still feel very strongly about this and the gratitude I feel for the people that supported me in my time of need will last forever.
Thank you if you read my poetry. These poems are incredibly personal and brought out some heavy emotions. Not only when I wrote them, but re-reading them as part of this process too. I am happy I wrote them and proud of how I expressed my emotions. I know it helped me.
2023 has been quite a year, hard in a lot of places and it isn't over yet. Once I have got a new flat sorted, helped my stepdad move and sorted out a couple of other things. I am looking forward to be able to manage my time better and be more productive in the web3 world. Have a wonderful weekend, thank you for your time and I will catch you next Friday!