The past 6 months of my life have been a rollercoaster. Although painful, I have learned many things that I plan to continue to explore these upcoming 6 months. I am grateful for these difficult times. I always have valued growth, and this is only the beginning.
My primary learning is that I am still exploring the world. I don’t honestly know who I am, what I want, and how I want to live my life. This is a positive take on my current situation. Although an opposing view in the past, I am more confident that growth will come. It may be slow, but it will depend on my daily effort.
My Past
In my past, some traits I had/have were straight-up toxic:
Huge Ego
Selfish / Selfless
Career / Money First Before Anything / Everything
Future Focused, Stuck In The Past
Dependent On Others For My Happiness
I am still dealing with many of these issues, but I am writing about them to overcome them. It hasn’t been easy, but it will happen. I have conviction in myself. I am excited to solve these issues.
On My Journey
I needed to hit two significant milestones before reaching this point.
Moving to New York
Satisfactory Career
I am the first one in my family to move out of state. I am the first one to be living in New York. This was a significant step because I never thought I would take it. Moving to New York was a big step towards betting on myself and exploring the world. Before my move, I was largely unaware of what the world could offer me—moving to New York opened pandora's box of travel, adventure, and exploration. This is only the beginning.
I recently started a new role at reNFT as Head Of Partnerships. Although it has been challenging to grow into the position, I am confident in my ability to achieve and execute. This job means a lot to me, and it is precisely where I need to be today to reach my goals for tomorrow. I am incredibly content with the position and enjoy the team. In the past, I spent all of my time grinding my career to get somewhere. I now believe I am somewhere. Therefore, I can chill out.
On Moving Forward
Moving forward, I need to change some
Building A Sense Community
Create My Life Around Habits
Quality / Quantity
Proactiveness Over Reactivity
Building A Sense Community
I realized that one of the things I feel the most is one of the things that hold me back the most; loneliness. Feeling lonely has been something I masked by my 24/7 grind. I now realize that I want to be a part of a community.
Create My Life Around Habits
I let a lot of things “slide” in my life. I didn’t have a structure that I followed, so my entire life felt spineless. I am working towards adding a system in my life through meditation, writing, social media creation, etc.
Quality / Quantity
My life revolved around doing everything without focusing on quality. I want to start learning to slow down, focus on quality, and be content with my work output.
Proactiveness Over Reactivity
Life is about being proactive, not reactive. This is easier said than done. I hope to be attentive to my actions and reactions in my life. I hope to use journaling to reflect and engage.
On Moving To Mexico
I am moving to Mexico on February 1st. In this move, a couple of things will be different than my current situation. I will be living in the exact location for 3 months! I haven’t experienced this for the last 7 months…
During my time in Mexico, I will be focused on building my community, creating my habits, and focusing on my actions. I will take this time to take time to focus on my own needs and grow personally.
Fin
I will be posting something Sunday and Wednesday. I will keep you all updated on what this looks like moving forward. I am excited and scared at the same time. Hasta luego.
