hello reader,
glad to know you aren't dead yet and you're still here with the rest of us roaming the earth and looking to the skies wondering what the fuck is out there. or maybe you don't even wonder and just gaze, but still you can't deny the fact that there's something enchanting about the skies when you look long enough. fuck there's something!
so what have you been doing this past few days aside eating, sleeping, fucking and chasing the illusion of numbers on a screen? well i'll tell you that i have been thinking what value is a life and whether it's worth losing? i mean in the past 7 days i have heard of two cases of suicide and it leaves me asking is it a loss of hope or a daring of courage? and i concluded that suicide is a testament of Lethargy. like fuck it i am tired of this whole shit, i want out. now we may attribute their death to a lack of hope, a situation of some grave sort but it boils that to been tired of it all, this game of life. what was david foster hopeless about, except the unending boredom that one experiences when one finds the impracticality of life.
what are we here for? why are we here? what the fuck is the very essence of the human race since its appearance on the theatre of the cosmos?
you see, you begin to realize that the answer will forever elude us, and that is why i count the people who will be presence at the end of civilization lucky... why? maybe because then they might be privy to the disclosure of an answer. any answer at all!
gosh i have been writing for too long. pardon me or fuck off... however the beauty of life still exists in it randomness. i still like to hear the cries of new born babies, watch them sleep and cry, i mean just yesterday a woman gave birth to quadruplets and i am like fuck this guys decided to come in a gang and to be very honest they made the right decision. going forward people should no longer give birth to one but two, three, four, five even ten babies at once. because why?
the whole world is fucked up for just one person to go through it alone. so that when ever you decide to die, you know there's a copy or copies of you left behind.
until next time.... you better don't die yet.
