At 35 years old, without a house, without a car, without a husband, Thuy and her two children are struggling to make ends meet. The office job is stressful, but the salary is too low. Thuy had to quit and look for another job. Before, Thuy always wanted to go to work, to dress up, to express herself, to prove that she was excellent, but giving birth to two children and staying at home for many years made Thuy lose all confidence in herself. Thuy kept comforting herself that everything was fine, her husband still loved her, until she realized that her husband had turned his back on her. The moment she saw her husband walking hand in hand with his lover into the hotel, she stood under the shade of a tree and cried loudly, all the anger, bitterness and resentment suddenly reached its peak. She did not have the courage to go in there to catch the adulterer, nor did she have the courage to see their lovemaking. She trudged back, after much effort, she finally won custody of her child from her husband.At 35 years old, without a house, without a car, without a husband, Thuy and her two children are struggling to make ends meet. The office job is stressful, but the salary is too low. Thuy had to quit and look for another job. Before, Thuy always wanted to go to work, to dress up, to express herself, to prove that she was excellent, but giving birth to two children and staying at home for many years made Thuy lose all confidence in herself. Thuy kept comforting herself that everything was fine, her husband still loved her, until she realized that her husband had turned his back on her. The moment she saw her husband walking hand in hand with his lover into the hotel, she stood under the shade of a tree and cried loudly, all the anger, bitterness and resentment suddenly reached its peak. She did not have the courage to go in there to catch the adulterer, nor did she have the courage to see their lovemaking. She trudged back, after much effort, she finally won custody of her child from her husband.
She still did not forget what her husband said to her when the three of them left, "I will see how you can live in this capital with two growing children, my children will provide for you, but remember your promise to me, do not let me lose face in front of everyone." In order to raise her children, she had to collect evidence of her husband's adultery, she had to be strong to confront her husband, if he did not give me custody of the two children, I would let everyone know about his debauchery. Her husband would probably be shocked because his wife, who always listened to him, suddenly became fierce and mean. But once a person has been pushed down to the abyss, there is no other way but to be strong and move up. He gave the two children 100 million a year, she took the money and left with the children. That amount of money was enough for the three of them to live temporarily.
Her luckiest thing was probably that during her time at home, she raised two super-well-behaved, adorable, and understanding children. That was a great motivation for her to be strong and continue living. She took her two children to school like every day... but today she didn't go to work. She suddenly wanted to stop for a moment, turn inward to understand herself deeply. She didn't want to do anything to forget all the negative feelings that were surrounding her. She wanted to stop to feel them. Someone said that the way to overcome negativity is to face them, listen to them, and then release them, otherwise they will become boils in the heart. She stopped in a sunny park, it had been a long time since she had time to calm down like this. Looking at the cool green trees, looking at the gentle sky, looking at the bright sun... she suddenly felt strangely peaceful.
That scene reminded her of herself 10 years ago, she was extremely pure and innocent. It was also here that her husband confessed his love and proposed to her. He loved her because of her confidence and dynamism. But then when she had a family, because she loved him too much and was pampered by him, she lost her true self. At this point, she realized that she had lost herself first. She could no longer love herself, so how could anyone else love her? It had been a long time since she had a new set of clothes. Her husband had reminded her, but she had brushed it off. She said she only stayed at home and didn't go anywhere, so why dress up? Her weight had also increased over time. She was 1m60 tall but she weighed almost 60kg. The firmness and confidence of the past were gone.... She burst into tears once again in the place that held so many memories. She promised herself that from today on, she would definitely change.
She went into the bookstore and found the old book that she had once loved. She read it again so she could write down her next plans for her life. She couldn't remember where she had read the saying "even when life is at its most tragic, you must not lose yourself, maintain your discipline and order". Today, having time to meditate, naturally so many precious things appeared in her mind. Ah, here it is, the book she was looking for "IKIGAI: FINDING A REASON TO WAKE UP EVERY MORNING". She had read this book when she was a student, but she had forgotten it when she got married, how ridiculous. She had followed in the footsteps of many tragic women who "got married and had children and then forgot themselves", she must find herself again and teach her two daughters that precious thing.
