the important thing is not "which" words come out, or in what order
it doesn't even matter if they make sense or not. there could be misspellings. or you may even not make sense
that is not the important part. believe me, dear reader
the important part of the process is just to face yourself using the words that come as the mirror
to witness the words that come out of you, yes, but more importantly, your relationship to them
to the process of those being the exact words that you chose in that exact moment
don't try to make sense of why those words came
i mean. you will do that naturally. that's just part of how the unconscious works (or at least mine)
but when you realize that you are trying to make sense of the words that came,
give that up. and allow yourself to rest in the awareness of how it feels to feel how you feel in that moment
is there any judgement? any expectation for the words that came to have been different?
just explore that. explore how that feels. and allow that exploration to be the vehicle to understand through your own experience how is your relationship with yourself. to feel it. to feel it all
do you love yourself? do you reject yourself? do you fear your truth? do you embrace your truth?
and don't escape the reality that arises. and inquiry into the nature of that exact reality:
is that real?
are those thoughts real?
are those judgements real?
is that who you are?
all of that, which naturally comes, which naturally arises, as a consequence of relating to those words that came out of you:
are those real?
i'm not giving you a definite answer, that is not the point
if you conceive anything of what i'm saying as a definite answer... you are missing the point
the point is just to rest in the awareness of the inquiry
to explore how it feels to be you in this moment
to feel how you feel
and to come up with a new way of observing your relationship with that which arises
it may be that you judge it as good. or bad. that you escape from it. that you want to walk towards it
it doesn't really matter. the only important thing is that it happens
the words that come out of you don't matter
the important part is that they come out
and that you use the process of them coming out as a vehicle for exploring your relationship with yourself
with your awareness
with the locus of that awareness
where does it come from?
how does it come from?
how is it felt?
and just rest in that
smile into that
breathe into that
it is a gift
the gift of awareness. the gift of your expression. the gift of the aliveness
the gift of life being expressed through you
as you
you are a gift. your life is a gift. and everything that happens to you is a gift
it may not be seen as that on the beginning
it may be that even the relationship that you have with the words that come out of you are perceived as something bad
but my invitation, dear reader, is to just let go
and breathe into how letting go feels
